|Stop creating excuses!|
So as it goes when you are doing your worst at avoiding something out of plain old cowardice, I had to come up with other excuses. As always the bad neighborhoods of the mind were more than willing to come up with a fresh round for me. "You can't write. You just think you can. No one is interested in what you have to say. Look at all of those creative, cute, savvy blogs out there. Why is one more or one less blog in e-space going to matter? You really don't have time to do this. You need a real job. Nobody with a real job has time for that. You are too slow. Look how many unfinished writings you have. You are supposed to be educating your children, not dabbling and messing around with pursuits of your own." On and on and on it piled up. One big stinking, smelly pile of crud my heart was all too willing to accept from the negative spaces of my own mind.
|We lock our dreams away with fear.|
The truth is that I AM afraid. I am afraid to write something meaningless. I am afraid to write something that will be untrue or lead another astray. I am afraid of being a hypocrite. I am afraid of trying and failing. I am afraid of rejection. I am afraid to take that leap of faith and never let go of my dreams because falling seems like such a long, long way down. I already know how awful it feels to leap only to feel the impact of crashing. I am afraid writing makes everything inside of my exposed heart leak out all over the place. It uncovers the depths of myself and makes me vulnerable. Writing is impossible for me to do without facing all of my demons and fears. I have been packing and unpacking those for years. All of my excuses have been driven by one vehicle braking and sliding across a treacherous road of black ice. Fear. The absence of love and the seed of all of our failure to try, to love, to sacrifice, to give it our very best no matter how many times we fall down or need to get back up.
|Toss your fears into the fire!|
I am going to do something with my writing I should have done from the start. I am giving all of it up to God. I am certain, based upon past failures and experiences, that I can accomplish nothing on my own. I have failed so miserably in the past and fallen down so many times along the way that I know I need Him for every breath and second of every day. I am going to listen to the nudges and the signs He has lovingly placed on my path. How about you? What will you do? Continue to visit those neighborhoods in your mind that are full of fears and excuses? Or do you want to take them by storm with the courage of light and love?
|Fly with the dreams God placed inside of your heart!|
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